Hello folks! I’m back from a much-needed trip. Stressful, emotional, and heartbreaking. I thought that I would share with you a little of what I have been going through for the past few weeks.
My Dad, who, just two or three weeks ago, was strong and completely independent, taking care of his wife. He very suddenly became ill and was hospitalized. Things were looking up for the first week. Then, this past week he has been on the decline physically and cognitively.
I spent the last 3 days quietly with my Dad, and dealing with nurses, aides, doctors, dietitians, and social workers. My Dad is not speaking much, and when he does it makes no sense 90% of the time. He never said my name, but I believe that he knew who I was. He is not eating, and drinking very little. Most of the time he spends sleeping or awake in pain. He has been in a skilled nursing facility for about a week. I requested several tests to be run, then the nurse and doctor decided it was best to send him to the hospital.
My Dad was admitted to the hospital, and I spent the last half of my time with him there. The doctor told me that he looks better, but he looks the same and even worse to me. He could not speak, is not eating, and is hooked up to IV’s. His pain is worse, and he is immobile.
I last visited my Dad a few months ago. He was completely independent, driving, cooking, walking, and taking care of his wife (my step-mother). I knew that something was amiss, when my Dad started asking me if I wanted to take things home with me. He began decluttering his house by giving me things. He spoke to me about his financial adviser many times over the past few months, which he never did before. I believe that he knew this was coming.
I don’t know if my Dad will make it through this physically and/or cognitively. Things are not looking good in this respect. I feel that I will never see my earthly father alive again. This has been the hardest thing to deal with. I’m not an emotional kind of person, but this has shaken me to my core!
“To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven:
2 A time to be born,
And a time to die;
A time to plant,
And a time to pluck what is planted;
3 A time to kill,
And a time to heal;
A time to break down,
And a time to build up;
4 A time to weep,
And a time to laugh;
A time to mourn,
And a time to dance;
5 A time to cast away stones,
And a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace,
And a time to refrain from embracing;
6 A time to gain,
And a time to lose;
A time to keep,
And a time to throw away;
7 A time to tear,
And a time to sew;
A time to keep silence,
And a time to speak;
8 A time to love,
And a time to hate;
A time of war,
And a time of peace.”
Even though this is a difficult time, that the loss I may soon have will cause sadness, grief, and pain, there is hope. The hope that I will see my Dad again in heaven! My Dad is a Christian. He has a relationship with Jesus Christ! So although I may soon lose my earthly father, I shall once again be reunited with him, in heaven with my other Father. This is my hope, my reason for trusting in the one and only true God of the universe, Jesus Christ!
“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.”
We all go through trials and tribulations, have pain and suffering. But we never know when our time here on earth will end. Things happen, life is dynamic and always moving. Time is not on our side when it comes to this earthly, physical existence. There is only one way to know that you will live on in peace, comfort, safety, and joy for eternity, and that way is by believing in Jesus Christ! He is the way, the truth, and the life. He is the only way to heaven, by no other name in heaven or on earth is there found salvation!
Do you know where your eternity lies? Are you certain that all is well and you will go to heaven? Do you know just how much time on earth you have been given? These are questions we should all be asking ourselves. There is only one way to know without a shadow of a doubt that you will have eternal life in heaven, and that is by accepting Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and Savior! As a Christian you know that God is with us. Without being saved or born-again, God is not with you. By not believing in God or placing your trust in Jesus Christ, you are rebelling against God, you are pushing Him away!
We are all given just a short time. What we do with that time will affect our eternal destiny. Make the right choice, live for the One who has given you life! Accept His free gift and know where you will spend eternity. It’s that simple.
Lord God, thank you for the time that you have given us, for the time we do have with our family and friends. You are the Giver of all things. Without You there is no hope, no joy, no peace. But with You we have the hope of eternal salvation, of being reunited with loved ones, and living with You forever! You Lord, are our Hope, You are the Shining Light, the Pathway to Righteousness, and our Eternal Savior! Thank you God! In all things I give thanks. Amen
God Bless my friends! It’s good to be back!